Today is …
The 2nd day of Spring? Yes
March Madness? Yes
And my birthday? Yes
And I’m writing about it because it feels so weird to me.
I can barely choke out that it’s my 60th. 😳
Somehow, I never imagined myself being 60…I know that’s weird. I told you.
Disclaimer: Please know I am NOT sharing this with you to solicit birthday wishes or encouragement but only as a means of pausing and reflecting on what feels so odd to me. I’m working this out with you in real time in this email. So thank you for reading and walking with me through this processing moment. It feels good to know I am not alone.
Normally, birthdays come and go without much fanfare in my world which is the way I prefer it, but somehow I cannot get away with that for this one. It feels different. I have thought to myself, how am I supposed to feel? As if there is an appropriate feeling one should have.
To be very honest, I would not say turning 60 was something I ever looked forward to. Actually, if I had it my way, I’d have at least 5 more years in my 50s…but alas, I am not in control of time. 😣
Confession: My vanity, insecurity, and FOMO have welled up in me a feeling of resistance toward turning this number. I know it’s just a number but let’s be real for a moment…anyone else feel that way about birthdays these days…just want to put it off? Deny it? Fight it? Pretend it isn’t happening? I guess I am not a graceful ager.
However, upon reflection, I AM actually amazed. I am amazed at ALL God has done for me, to me, and with me. And when I think about what’s really underneath all this resistance and what’s really creating this tension I believe it is the fact that…I feel like I am just getting started!
So as I sit here and think a little bit more about this significant day, maybe that’s actually a good feeling to have upon turning 60. Maybe that IS my gift! The idea that I am at this age, I am just getting started, and that I have waited all my life for this time. It is actually pretty exciting now that I think of it that way. To think that all things in my life have been happening to and building me up for such a time as this!
Wow, now that’s a new view I needed today.
Ok, now that changes things.
When I think about it further, life has really taken off in the last few years. This incredible season and vision were born from a very dark place after tragedy in my family and then from that seed, Live Your Vision was born. Oh, there it is – that tension again. How I wish I’d started this work in my 20’s or 30’s (as many of the women tell me). But the fact is – I did start it. And I probably wasn’t yet ready then. But regardless of why now, THIS is what I have been waiting for. My time to shine. Who knew it would come in the wrapper of turning 60 with….
✅ Stronger mental fitness – tools to stay above my depression and anxiety and create, dream, and execute!
✅ Greater health overall – although today I am feeling the resistance of a broken toe and sinus infection at this very moment 😂
✅ Greater Faith in GOD Himself and the way He shows up to me personally day in and day out. 🙏
✅ Growing and evolving relationships with my husband/kids – not easy but evolving and worth the work because we are NOT settling 👩❤️👨
✅ Thrilling and exciting future with the most amazing team of women anyone could ever ask for, aka Team LYV.
✅ And a year ahead that is crazy exciting!
So thank you, my friend, for indulging me in this little reframing/processing session. I hope this helps you perhaps in your time of need. And thank you also for your participation in this vision whether working on yours or cheering us on here. It is with great joy and excitement that I now welcome this day. Thank you for being here for it!
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